I was 10 when my mom pointed at a girl and told me why can't U go to the "DAIRY" like that girl. I looked at the girl. I have seen that girl before but never noticed. A feeling arose in my mind. " well, mom. Wot if I brought this girl as ur daughter in law. she will go to dairy for both families." That was the feeling when I was a kid. It accumulated as a concrete love towards her with time.
I started looking her pass by my house every day in her bicycle. I used to go for walk around her house in the evening. Whenever I saw her, my heart would start reacting in a different way. I started noting this phenomenon as love. I kept liking her till I passed my high school. I never looked at other girls. I felt I would be cheating on her If I even stared at other girls with obscene sense. But I was always afraid to propose her and tell her how much I loved her.
To continue my study, I came to US. But I never forgot her. With the help of her cousin, I got her telephone number. I called her. I thought she would be mad to answer a phone from an unknown guy.Instead, she talked with me as if she knows me before. I proposed her by phone. she hesitate to tell yes in phone. But she told my cousin that she loves me. One day, I asked her if she loved any other guy before me. She told me a guy infront of her house who already proposed her 4 yrs ago. I asked her If she rejected or accepted his proposal. She told me that she didn't tell him anything. According to her, she don't want to make bad relations with the neighbours.............

But wot does that mean? That means she accepted his proposal. Then wot about me.why did she told my cousin that she loves me? Is she double-dealing with me? I spent money more than in any other things just to talk with her......... And now she is confusing me. I asked her if she still loves that guy or she loves me. she said she likes everyone(thing), even cats and dogs. I aint like those animals though.I am gonna ask her more questions on our next call..
I need suggestion from all out Sajha friends to understand my love. Wot's ur view? I will be waiting for comments.. I will be updating our conversation as I call her every saturday and let U all know wheathe I got my 8 yr old love.My Love since my childhood

gulp down one bottle of rum and propose to her again in phone jkjk

Rum Bro

Reading at your story it seems as if you are in some dilemma. You are not sure how much you trust the one you love. There is always a line you have to draw in how you are and what you are with your lover. Obliviously you want to be secure of your love and you have jealousy in such matter but, “Jealousy is a sign of love” if you know where to draw that line. If you are jealous to an extent that’s the love for him or her but much of jealousy means you are insecure and you don’t trust the one you love.

Well next time you talk to her probably its good not to rise the same question again to her asking if you still love that guy or do you still keep in touch with him? But I would say if you really love that girl and want her to be yours, ask her how true can she be to you? Say her “ I will trust you by every means and I do trust you for everything” and make her realise that you love her to that extent where she can’t even imagine your love. And tell her because of all the love you have for her and trust towards her will hurt you very much if she breaks your trust by any means. Make her feel that she has been a dream of your life for years now and promise her that you will always remain true and expect her to be true to you as well.

Good Luck with your life bro and hope this relation you want to maintain works for both of you but in life if someone cant be true and does deceive you and do break your trust think that THEY WERE NEVER MEANT FOR YOU.. LIFE HAS TO GO ON…

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