My First Love Lost




I will not say that he was the object of my first affections, for that would be a lie. I have been feeling passionate about people since I was very, very young. Younger probably than most people. But I deny giving those feelings the title of love.

This may seem unfair to those who don’t know the difference, but those who do will agree: calling infantile crushes love is calling a dandelion a rose. There is simply no comparison.

I suppose that we all lose our first loves, as well, and that is what makes them so sweet. But the truth is, real love is something that one never truly loses: as long as we hold onto that feeling, that emotion that is love, in its first, most pure state, we have hope, and we have the promise of bright days ahead. And your first love is perhaps your most real and most true of all loves.

It took us a year and a half to work up to “I love you,” even though we’d been saying it with our eyes for almost that entire time. He thought I was “hot,” I thought he was “cute,” his friends hated me for taking him, my friends hated me for talking about him all the time, but we were in love, and damn the rest of the world.

Every single important moment with him, from first kiss, first voicing of the tremendous feeling inside, first time making love, break up, was completely perfect. In the course of three months, I ran through every single passionate emotion a human being can possess. And I think that he would tell you the same.

Finally, I made a mistake or two, and it became apparent that he had many things to do that he couldn’t do with me there loving him deeply. I do not say that bitterly; it is the truth. We are both young and ignorant, and college draws us steadily farther away. And yet, our love draws us closer and closer together.

In the days that followed the breakup, I realized that while it hurt incredibly to have to “lose” him, I had gained him as a friend, and that was more important than anything else. Years down the line, I am sure, we will end up back together, for there is much unfinished business and untapped emotions between us.

But even if that never comes to pass, he is, and will always remain, my first love as well as one of my truest friends. There is so much I have to thank him for, and I cannot, so I merely show him in my actions how much he means to me, as a human being. I give him compassion, now, instead of passion.

Love, true love, transcends all. It does not have to be passionate. It does not have to be wild, it does not have to be romantic. True love is ALL of those things, at one time or another, but it endures through all the ups and downs, adapts to all situations, and never gives up. That is what gives those who love truly the incredible hope that all others find so amazing and foolish.

But those who love are not foolish … they are, for the first time, truly alive and open to feeling all emotions that can possibly be felt by the human soul.

I am not a fool to have loved and lost, for I lost nothing, and I gained the world.

To describe about first love there is no word to explain. Just feel it you will enjoy.

Losing someone whom you love the most ofcourse hurts, either be it your first love or last love. Neither thought i would be in love again and never thought i would be hurt again as much as i did before. So fucchi, let life flow as it flows and keep on living. You may not know what comes tomorrow, you might met some one whom you love more then you had ever, though old memories will always be in within you. Good ones or bad ones. And that how we live and learn from. All the best though.
nivaN

love is a great teacher. true love is one that makes you identify "YOU" in yourself. love is giving--sacrificing. don't expect to GET love so you won't feel worried about losing it--in fact, true love is for giving. try giving love unselfishly, i bet love will follow you and you won't be disappointed.


touching! good one, fuchhi!

LooTe

Well let me start by saying good article!!

Foe da wattup? I am so flattered that you know me so good that while reading an article writen by someone else.. you start remembering me.. But sad to say.. that was not me.. anyway stay in touch.. miss ya

la ramro cha fuchhi

धेरै अर्थ लाग्छ मायाको तर हार नठानीदीनु
जती जे भो भैइ गयो मन मन्दीरमा सजाउनु

धेरै बाधा हरु अरुको तर दोस कसैलाई नदीनु
जती जे भो भैइ गयो मन मन्दीरमा सजाउनु

कती कम्जोर रहेछ भाग्य .......

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1. Anonymous : Many thanks fro your beautiful words.
2.Cyberdude, The illusionist: Thanks for your words
3.Bidhata: No words found to thank you.
4. niVan: Thanks for your loving words
5. LooteKukur: loote dai ' thank you'
6. Rythm, I love Nepal : ' thank you'
7.Birbhadra: Thanks for your beautiful poem in Nepal

Thank you all !

uhi .. fuchhi ..

yo fuchhi,

are you nails by any chance?

you don't need to respond if you want to conceal your identity :P


oohi Dai
LooTe

Twisted............
memories....feelings.......dreams......
the sky outside......
the pain inside........
lights.....forms........stars....
past......present..... future......
twisted is my life
twisted am I

Loote dai, Malia dukkha lago hajoor le teso bhanda ...

ma hajoor saga aba boldina ke ....

bye ...

gazzab... thanks for sharing ... ..

..uhi fuchhi ...

oye fuchhi,
last ma wink, wink bhanya khai ta? hehe.....i thought you were nails ke...now i am damn sure ni :P


LooTe (wink, wink ) hahahahhahaa

loote - lol!!
i am here ke!! and when did i ever say that you were my dai ke?? uffffff!! :@ :@
and not i am not fuchhi!!

but i am sure fuchi is just someone like me!! :) aren't you fuchhi??

and nice story by the way!! (wink,wink)

o its so much like anurag-prerna story!!
first love.. hmm wudnt say its a true love but .. cannot forget it for sre,.. tyo ta ho naii..!!..i think love depends on how ppl take it... boys - 75% go for sex in love, women .. i think want attention and care more than sex..!!

I think nails should change her name to winku...hhehehe..just a thought :D...nails uses lots of 'ke ke' and 'winku winku' and 'uffffff' all the time...fucchi is really a fucchu ;)

nailu aka fuchhi...:P

that story was a sweet one ni so you don't need to register for another nick ke:P. you are my sweetheart (sis bhanyo bhane risaauchha ke garne) so you don't need to worry ke!! :P wink, wink

fucchi,

why mad at me sis? ma pani timisanga boldina ke! wink, wink ....:P


LooTe

loote - whatever you wanna say ke!!! i am not in the mood to argue with you ke!! uffffff!!
and i am not your sis ke!! cause i never was in the first place!! :@ :@

nailu,
don't get mad at me ke! maile ke bhanya chhu ra? i thought you were fuchhi ke!..i didn't know you are not ke! now i know you are not fuchhi ke! you are tall ni! :P wink, wink...

aba haasideu na? katti risai raa ma sanga? mero ke galti chha ra baaba?


LooTe