ok just for the sake of it(am i that bored today?:o| hehe)..tho deep inside one cant stop feeln this wont happen anyways :oS..reality hurts?:o( ;oP hehe..
10 yrs back..(another meaninless info just came to me mind..that be the age i always cant stop thinkin of!!that i wish i always was!!i dunno why!but that number!!its always in me head!dunno wat happened when i was tht age!but woohoooo!!i seem to have a thing for that number!and when i was that age!:oD hehe)..i would have been studyn then..i would tell meself to focus more!(i think that was the time i started driftn away from me studyin interest hehe)..and i would be pushn more to ask me parents to let me go to nepal!!!cos yeah!time doesnt wait for no man!!it didnt wait for my grandpa!!!..yeah its pretty sh-it when i think about it..i might not have really known him..how can i?when the only time i really was with him was when i was a kid..and when ithots do come to me about him..of how i was when i was young and with him around..i dunno if those thots that come are just thots that are conjurrin out of nowhere..or those things really happened!!..cos once or twice when i asked my mum about some of the thots..or wat i thot were memories of back then..she would ask me..u never went to darjeelin!!(oops was that wat she told me..or is it just another thot that conjurred up again?:oS hehe)
yeah(back to where i was ;oP hehe ..im tryn to stick to a topic!!arghhhh!!!!so i wont type about the thots that comes..which i think is memories i had of the good times with me granpa ..like how when we arrived in the village..he went to kill some doves!yeah u vegetarian!i dun think i ever had doves after that..duuukkur is doves?..but i believe so..cos i still remember it!those were the tastiest food i ever had!!!and no im not comparin taste here!how can u compare!when im not just tastin the taste..but the feelns!the feelns that comes!to realise one is loved!one is cared!so much!!and tht too for doin nothn!?arghhh!!!..oops :oS hehe)..enuf of the thots..but hah!time doesnt wait does it?if u think it does..someone shud pass the mssg to me grandpa..and me parents!and yes even me!!!:oD..i do take it too much for granted..as along with tonnes of things..but guess thats me?thats us?..oops where was i?:oS ;oP hehe
but i know it wasnt in me hands..and worse things are happenin out there..to others..and just thinkn about oneself..is being a bit too selfish?but hey!im human!!let me be human!thank u!:@b bloodyy humans!:@ ;oP hehe..arghhhh!!!i shudnt think!!dyam i better do smthin to get busy and not think!!but before i go there..let me finish wat i wanted to say here wahahahah ;oP hehe..dhat!why must i try to finish!when i know i cant finish!cos i let meself meander!and of cos talk bhakwash wahaha..
ok back to topic!;oP..hehe....
so yeah 10 yrs back then..try to focus on studyin..and after that instead of takin a long break!!sidha freakn find a job!!!..and after that!i wouldnt have changed line!!!!i miss wat i used to do!!arghhhh!!!cos that was where me interest lied?:oS hehe..and yes!i would have most prob preffered to go UK ..yeah the weather is sh-it!but hey!football!!(yes just for football!!some of u dun give me that look!:@ i know wat ur thinkn!!wat u think i thot when i mentioned UK!:@ ;oP hehe)..
but in the end of it..duh!if things hadnt happened the way it had..would i be like wat i am now?tho i may be in achi..and a achi right now? wahahaha ;oP hehe(sh-it is banned?good that achi aint ;o) hehe)..would we be feeln the things we are feeln now? can we ever deny ourself that we do believe we have become better from those experiences of ours?(tho we do try to deny more than we realise?;oP hehe)that we have learnt a lot..(tho in fact we learnt nothn?believin is one thing..fact another?wahahaha ;oP hehe)..anyways yeah!..im glad things have gone this way!i wouldnt wanna trade some of those experiences and feelns i felt for anythin else ;o)..well everythin has a price they say..but i dun think anyone can afford the 'price' im askn..(wat?god!?god u said u will take part if i 'auctioned'?wat am i hearin?:o| ..show that u will come!and i will be ready to 'auction' those 'stuffs' ;o) yeah right!;oP hehehe..)...
anyways yeah..didnt understnd?wahahaa..duh!just lettn it out ;o)..feels good ;o)..nothn to be understood ;o)..cheers if u tried ;o)..but if u didnt..know not cos u couldnt..know there is nothn to fathom!wahahahaa...duh!not everythin is supposed to make sense hoina?oh well if u want to make sense of it..guess ur just being a human?good luck with that ;oP hehe and good luck to me too..duh!im a human too!!like u!!dun isolate me!:@ ;oP hehe..
la la enuf of ramblin..watever happens happens for the best eh?plus there are tonnes others doin worse than us..urghh :oS hehe....enuf of wat life was back then and now..lets see wat tomorrow has in store ;o)..for me?for us?;o) hehe if tomorrow comes?;oP hehe gotta go make meself busy!other than typin!hah!have things to type!not for pleasure :oS hehe...
good day!
(ps dun mind me..to those who are mindin!:@ dyam!why must u all have minds!;oP hehe...i was really cuttn it down and i did!!!woohooooo!!:oD..but u know me dun u?:oS ;oP hehe ani pheri i used a banned word re?CHOW CHEEEE BYEEE!:@ wat was that!!!!vayena san bro!!!!!!:@ enuf of whinin!and internal battles? ;oP hehe..tough being alive eh?humans?..dun worry ur tougher than u think?yes im talkn about u toughfie! ;o) hehe..san bro!one suggestion which u wont read anyways!who will?;oP hehe...why not put a list of 'banned' words!!!the list is there..but pls!show it!!i dun wanna read me own bhakwash blabberin to find some banned words which i have no idea of!!!u doin this to me intentionally arent u?:o( ;oP hehe...of all words..sh-it is banned?:oS..ever wanted to sh-it and wasnt allowed to?well if u been there and done that..u know how im feeln right now :o(..yeah pretty shi-it :o( ;oP hehe....regrets!!i have tonnes!tonnes to mention!hehe...dun worry wont mention!;oP hehe..but in the end!i did it myyyyyy way!which could be ur way too!!hah!*gone*)
