I am rather into blogging!!.... This is just to keep promise I made to someone!!..:)
--Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company--


Well saw this hot girl in the TV next day and I was more daunted by the first few lines of the song than rather overexposed dancing of her!! The song was about not being unfaithful and It seems she was intending to make lots of people around unfaithful!!...Hmm quite a contrary!!

Anyways, I am not going to talk about that girl in this blog, rather I would like to talk about the right thing I would like to do in my life. Sometimes I just wonder if I know myself at all. I may have gulped Half a tanker of whiskies, few tankers of beer and lot more other alcohols just thinking that I will find myself then after, but instead somebody have to find me so that police won't find me and make me understand myself!..
Hmm
Conclusion 1: Alcohol doesn't help you find yourself, rather it gives a -once a jerk- always a jerk- impression to your friends.

Then there was a time when I tried meditation to find my self. They said I should concentrate for more than a hour seeing my breathes go in and out!! Strange it was, but doing that I would rather feel my brain wandering to the how it relates to finding myself; was I finding my soul or the tracks of the breathes to the lungs!!...made me wondered!! no offense to all the meditation addicts out there but concentrating on something for straight hour seems not my cup of tea. Yeah, I can concentrate on movies for hours and hours but there is constant change in the scenes and rather really beautiful creation world has made: the woman! But what is the attraction in seeing your own breathe going in and out, so I dropped the idea of discovering myself that way!
Conclusion 2: If you have to become Buddha just to find yourself out, Its better you have enough Media coverage as that Bomjan* boy so that u can also make some bucks out of it!!
*Bomjan boy- He is new-born Budhha back in Nepal, who vanishes from time to time and re appears again out of nowhere!! But I like his hairdo though!!

Then, I thought maybe my friends and family would know me better, so why not ask them: and I called my fried right away:
My friend- Hello!!
Me- Hey, its me!!
My friend- Hey, how have you been??
Me- yeah fine, But I need to ask you something!!
My friend- Ok!!
Me- Can you define me to me, because I need to find myself!!
My friend- Huh!! What does that mean!! (Maybe she was thinking; Duh what a dumbo!!)
Me- Hmm, lets say how u take me as??
My friend- as a friend, very good friend indeed, whom I can confide on anytime!! Hey did I told you about that thing!!
Me- Hmm, No I think..
Then...blah blah blah...
So the conversation was rather leading to I discovering my friend rather than my friend discovering me. I asked another friend too.. but conversation was rather short this time!
Me-Oyee, Tell me one thing!!
My friend- what??
Me-Can you define me??
My friend- Dictionary herna jaa afno defination khojna!!
Rather short and sweet; Maybe I should look into wikipedia or encylcopedia!! Maybe that would be better option!!
Now only another option was to turning into the family; and this time I did nto have to ask them at all!! My family tagged me as a lonesome, individualistic-cum-selfish, lazy-bum, anti-social creature. Hmm... But I needed to find me more than that!!
Conclusion 3-Don't ask your friends and family about yourself; they are more confused about you than yourself.

So now, I am here still finding ways to find myself; But still with 0 percent success!! Have exam lined up in next 3 days, but it seems that I am rather happy blogging!!

Final Conclusion

How can I find the right thing to do when I can't find myself out!! So I would like to leave that rather to my destiny!! Maybe destiny will also bring a princess of mine, who would draw her sword out and kill the dragon of lonely empire, and take me to the her kingdom, where I would live with all the children we ll have jumping off over my head trying to figure out who this -some make up-and ready for zoo- guy!! I would rather make others go insane trying to figure me out rather than making myself insane!!

P.S.-Did I make any sense out there?? If not I am sorry for wasting 15 minutes of your precious time!

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This seems more of a monologue ! Nice one.

whats the blog address anyway ?

Jolly jiffy Jug...

Cracking mitey - do keep writing.. I will read 'em.

Jolly good mate. :-0

Flippu,
I am not being convinced that you can't write!!..:P
I know u can!! I know you can!!..:)

OldMaven,
Yeah It was a Monologue!!..:)
You can visit me here--> Juggy'sWorld!!
Thanx for your comment!!

Sandy My mate!!
You don't need to sleep..:O..:O
Thanx for ur comment!!..:)
Have a good nite matey!!..:D

No worries, mitey... and thanks.

Hey, you website doesn't work on my pc... is it me who is in the fault or this friggin machine. I might as well chuck it in the bin... it's giving me so much head in! grr..

Oh the IT illiterate me..

I have got to bail out of Sajha now... early morning tom..

Take care Jug and good night

Almost missed this thread - great site there Jug - thanks for sharing a part of your life with us.

:)

Sandy,
I think that site works just fine..:S
Here is the link location if u have tough time in that hyperlink!!
http://asthelifegoes.blogspot.com/
Have a good day!!

Cappy!!
Holy moly Blistering barnacles! Thousands of thundering typhoons!!!
I am graced that super cool star of Sajha has graced my crappy two cents!!
Thanks for your comment cappy!!
I just write whatever my dumb brain says!!..:)
Thanks again!!
:)

I nearly missed this thread of our own Juggy. Juggy!! oh! Juggy!! we know what you are. we know how you are, we know manything if not everything. Better hit my number and I will tell you what you are bhanera. ;-)
And as flip flop said, you are the future of Nepal, A promising future, A future that makes us (friends) proud to be part of. :-)
Read it and loved it.

Have a good one Pal.
:-)

Good one Juggy! a philosophical piece, hope to read more.

Camo Mero Nish paat!!...:p
Dai ya re Daiya Tmra roop ko ma k barnaan garaun!! 1000 sodashi le barnan garna nasakne lai ma aafulai barnan garna nasakne le k barnan garna sakaula ra!!..:p
Hajur aidinu bho, mero laagi tehi thulo kura! # paam na dial garna lai!! Ki tyo ni only for sodashis ho??..:p
Anyways, all in jest , u have good one!!..:D

Chitrey,
Maile ahile lai Chautari ma bishraam lyeko chhu!! Tehi bhayera tmra barnan ni yehin garchhu!! Your touch in Nepali literature rocks!!
Keep writing!!
Ciao!!
:)

.LOL Juggy!!

हे प्रभु!! हे ख्वामित्!! तपाई कस्तो मान्छे भने, चार हात भएका भगवानहरुले भन्दा नि धेरै लेख्न सक्ने, चार टाउको भएका ब्रम्हाले भन्दा धेरै देख्नसक्ने, ६ महिना सुत्ने कुम्भकर्णले पुर्याउन नसकेको निन्द्रा ६ मिनटमात्र सुतेर पुर्याउन सक्ने, आफुलाइ बुझ्न खोज्दा खोज्दै सन्सार् नै बुझिदिने, यस्ता तपाईलाई १००० मुख भएको शेषनाग ले त बयान गर्न सकेनन्, हामी तुच्छ मानबले के गर्न सकौँला? त्यहिपनि फोन को झटारो हानिदिए केहि पत्र उक्याउने चेस्टा गर्ने थिए!! तपाईँलाई कोटी कोटी नमस्कार छ।

Jai hos Prabhu!!

Saastanga dandawat!! :P

Your reponse to my comment is so funny ha ha ha!!

:)

LOL juggyle afulai chinnuhos bhanne book lekhna la ho? maathiko ganthan padhna ta bhya chhiana pachhi padhepachhi lekhmalaa hai kasto laagyo bhanera?

जग्गी, गजप छ तिम्रो ब्लग हेरियो मजाले, मजा आयो पढ्न!
बरु आफूलाई खोज्दा अरुलाई चिन्न पुग्दोरहेछौ नि त! :):)
जय होस प्रभू!

Juggy decided to go public eh? Oh, wait a second! A smart move to update your profile! :-) So did you find who you are eventually? I prolly need to memorize your "Insomniac". A marvel it is!

7 minutes of my life............
5 pm est. I was getting ready to leave from my so called bf's appartment. Tall, dark and handsome, those attributes he had with those extra small size glasses on his nose, I couldnt help falling for him. 5:10 pm we were already inside his car and heading for the station. Mariah Carey's "we belong togeda" was playing softly , I felt his hands on mine , rubbing gently. "Baba will you miss me?" He just said it and I somehow being able to ignore it remained silent. 5:20 pm est we reached the station. HUrriedly we went inside to get my ticket. 5:25 pm we were waiting for the amtrak at the gate. I had 7 mins more to go. 7 more mins with the person i fell in love, the person who taught me how to love and the person I trusted the most. And those precious 7 mins of my life I hugged him for the last time like I never hugged anyone before. I felt like his heart was beating inside me and his breath coming through my lungs. And yea I did feel heaven those 7 mins. How could I ever be forget those 7 mins of my life even that very person cheated on me? Love I guess was LOVE in real. I felt love for the first time in life just to be betrayed in those 7 mins. 5:32 pm est. the train arrived and finally when I realized I was already in one of those soft seat of amtrak. I cried the whole way, 3 hours journey to my place. A bitter past but a new lesson, bestowed so heavenly in those 7 mins I could think of nothing.
That very moment I realized myself. I came to being enlightened and to remain like that,,I was heartbroken....and that 3 hours journey I tried to find those shattered pieces. Ive already framed those broken pieces of my dream together and knotted them tight like an endless knot.
FINAL CONCLUSION
We broke up. Im as happy as I was ever before and I always hope that he's also very much in love with his girl. So Juggy I think sometimes in life you need someone else to make you realize and show what you really are and finally finding yourself!!!!!!!!!
and when you do find yourself dont forget to put another but yet so powerful blog of yours!!!!!

Camo,
Saastanga dandawat!! :P
:D

Pretty,
Huss!!..:)

Birkhe!!
Ambooooo, Budha le andrai dekhin hareep comment lekhdine!!..:p
Andrai dekhin Thank you la!!..:D

Flippy,
Maybe my princess will help me find myself one day!!..:p
Amnesiac you are!!I hope U won't forget me and say, thyo ni yeuta tyo 'Insomniac' lekhne bandaar kya!!..:p

Memoirs,
Sometimes life teaches u some valuable lessons and u learn to live ur life right!! As Robert frost said, ' It moves on.' I just am also moving along with it!! And I know U are doing the same!! I just wish that I will be able to decode myself out; and I promise, I will certainly let you know!!..
Keep smiling!!..:)
You never know when somebody is going to fall for your smile!!..:)

WEll juggy if you can't find urself try to puzzle up urself and try fixing it.. I guess you may be able to do so.. I you can't aren't able then

just make things go just the opposite way juggy wanted......... THen you'll know who you are, who is juggy....... and you'lll know what's ur ID and what's ur EGO...

-Rockend

Juggy...even if i said in some ways..u made sense to me..would anyone take that seriously?esp from someone who doesnt make sense?;oP hehe..

i was goin to type smthings but me being me(esp right now) had to read if those things had been already said..and i guess in some ways memoirs already kinda put it down..but let me just still type re kya ;oP...

i guess in the end..we are never complete..so we wont ever know ourselves fully since we are ever changing?and of cos we know ourselves best(unless if one is too screwed in the head?;oP hehe) since we have spent the most time with ourselves..makes sense?hehe..and we(dunno about the rest ..but i know i am one of them who) are always tryn to find/know oneself..guess in that area we always feel we are lackin dun we?hehe..and being the 'sensible' being we are..wat we feel we lack in..we try to gain more in that area esp if we feel it makes us better?

hah im not really 'definite' am i?;oP ..

but yeah like memoirs said..due to others u will know a bit more about urself ..things u didnt know or didnt believe some ppl will show u a bit of urself..while there be others who show u more....and that might help u find more about urself..does that mean we find ourselves when we try to find others?;oP..well we are all a bit of each other hoina?i have a bit of u..and u have a bit of me(yap be scared!!its true!u have a bit of me!:o| hehe) and u have a bit of another person..maybe a bit more a bit less.but def a bit there..

sacchi all these bits just makes it seem too complex?can we ever decode ourselves?of cos there be tonnes who wont stop tryn how impossible it might seem...

ok i just saw smthing of meself(again) thanks to u..why i cut down wahahaha..and i better get out of here..hewitt just got broken again arghhhh!!!!!!

and if i showed u anything of urself..no worries re kya ;oP..

have a good one..and yeah i just might be checkn out ur blog in the future..urs was the 1st time i read in ages..(cut down on readin blogs/dramatics stuffs for a while now ;oP hehe)...

good day!:oD

And Anon is here too.. :-)

It feels like old times again.. blimey.

.Rocky,
Thanks for nice ideas mate!! But I have put stop to my ordeal for now!!..:p
Thanks for dropping by!!..:)

Danny boy!
What more can I ask for when a old veteran of Sajha like you drop in to say ur thousand words!! I am simply honored!!..:)

Sandy!!
It sure is gold old times innit, Matey??
Cheers!!..:D

well thanks !!! anyways did you find urself in the world of none..

try staying alone in nowhere and say where you are I guess you'll know where you are...

I guess you got what I meant to say ...