My hands are tied and my eyes are open wide, I
can see the longest distance from my sight and no any visible point
ahead in my eyes. My mouth is sealed and I have thirst in my throat, I
can feel the blood circulating through my veins and my nerves are
itching. This might be my last time, my last time to remember all the
things I have done in life, all the sins and the good things. Others
say that you should take god's name while you die and think about the
good things that you have done in life, but when I start from the point
of holding the memory, I never did anything right. I am a sinner and
this is how I should die, a death of pain and death of throe. I lived
my whole life in a vain and only god knows what I have done. People
said me I am a sinner I need to confess, I need to go to the Jesus and
say that I was wrong, but my words never changed and my firm reply was
who the hell is Jesus??? Sorry my words were rude enough but I cannot
say a man born like us a god, so I prefer to die as I am now, may be
called a sinner or insane or out of mind. Someone told me child you are
in a wrong path, follow my way and I will make you pure, pure from your
inner soul and I'll pure your mind, but my query was what was impurity
in me. How can two human be different from each other, he is pure and I
am not?? Well Jesus I would like to meet you after my death, I would
like to ask you what you taught, what was your perception and how you
tried.

Gautam Buddha is also in my list of people whom I'd like to meet,
ask him and discuss with him what was his intentions, who said him
those things and who made him take such decision. As far as I know he
said that he is god and we all are destined to be god, if so then why I
am not god now, why they call me sinner?? There are certain rules to be
followed to be god I read in one book, if it is for real than I cannot
stand the fact how many gods will live in earth. Will it be like
Hindu's god and goddess who are 33 million in count (the number of gods
were more than of people in earth), it was just a co-incidence but if
we all will be god someday than I wonder about the number of gods and
still wondering who'll be their followers. Whatever they mean or they
may call themselves but one thing is for sure, they are the biggest
enemy of the human nature. This was my sentence that I was called
sinner for, but I am really not willing to worship another human like
me as a god even if they had charismatic power.

All people worship god with a pray in their mind, someone wants to
wash their sin with the divine but who is to decide what is sin and
what is good?? The coin always has both side and people cannot believe
only one side is the world, have to think from another point too. But
for me either it may be Jesus or Buddha they brought discrimination
between people, they divided people into different groups so human
created hatred between each other in the name of god. Now I don think
we human need to be blamed for this, what you say if I add the name of
Mohammad in it?? This was my message I wanted to spread the world, that
we are human and we should love each other no matter of any race, place
or religion. I did the best till I can until I died and its all in your
hand if you call me sinner. I don't need my name in the history book
and not interested to be placed near the gods whom you prayed, if you
want to do something for me then please love the human race, my soul
would rest in peace if you can spread a bit love with each other. Now
its time for me to die and now I can feel my soul fly in the sky, free
to fly without a boundary, and its just a human I love human I love.